Even I’m annoyed by my case of social anxiety.
It’s not all my fault, though. Yeah, sure, pushing the blame on someone else sounds like the worst thing to do, but it’s the only logical thing I can think of.
I’m not the most courageous person I know. I can only have enough guts to do anything when I’m with a friend or someone I know. I don’t like doing anything alone unless it’s something that can be done on your own (aka writing on the computer). I loathe human interaction. I would rather you kill me than have me walk up or call a stranger to do normal adult stuff.
Continue reading “drinking coffee”
Nah, the title’s misleading.
It seems like I’ve given up on adding photos to my posts. I’d like to have you know that I’m way too lazy to do a quick Google search or even to download a free stock image from a free stock image storage website and upload it here.
Someday, I’ll be too lazy to even breathe and die right there in my bed.
That’d be nice.
Got to say something about life, though.
Continue reading “i’ll be gone”
I don’t care if you didn’t directly say it, ignoring it is already enough ground to claim transphobia.
Continue reading “let me go, i don’t want to be your hero”
The title is a little misleading, though. I’m not homosexual. The rainbow does not apply to me despite it being one of the most prominent signs relating to the LGBT+ community.
Continue reading “somewhere over the rainbow”
Let’s talk about Universities since we’re on the topic of school, shall we? Continue reading “the universe in your eyes”
It’s nearly a year since I’ve started this blog and I’ve only managed to put five entries in. Kind of tells you how boring my life is, really. I don’t have much to talk about because nothing I say is really note-worthy.
That, or I’m just really happy all the time and there’s nothing I need to say in excess – unless it’s something I’m really passionate about. Unfortunately, most of the things I’m passionate about are the things I feel negative towards.
Continue reading “keep what you love”
It’s been a very, very long time since I last wrote a blog entry — there’s no excuse, I’ve just not been doing it for some reason.
There’s little reason for me to share my life here, public on the Internet like this, but here I am. Maybe I’d keep more personal things out of these posts and put them in my physical diary. Continue reading “i’m sure there’s nothing pure here”
I never understand the reason why people find it necessary to do the exact opposite of what you want them, or kindly requested them, to do.
I came out on Facebook, and yes, I know it’s probably not the best choice since you would want to explain any confusions they might have face-to-face and you can’t do that over text, it’s the only way I can find that helps me. Continue reading “eat, sleep and breathe that you’re full of the stuff”
I suppose this is a place as any to start mentioning how I feel recently about my gender identity and how others are coping.
No, I’m not completely out yet, so I don’t suppose others would suddenly start referring me as Jordan and be fine with it, no questions asked. But I have been dropping enough hints for people — those who have a shred of respect left in the humanity tattered body of theirs — to start referring me as male.
Unfortunately, there aren’t actually that many people. And even within the people who are willing to, they don’t seem to actively do it.
Continue reading “it’s a wide ocean and a tight emotion”
My grades aren’t really looking up as they should.
Surely, they are better than before? I don’t really know. I’m not doing terribly as I thought I’d be. My grades in English Literature aren’t bad but they aren’t as good as I wanted. Somehow I slipped up during the exams and ended up with the lowest grade in the class of six people.
That’s a real embarrassment. Continue reading “one two three, one two three, drink”