it’s a wide ocean and a tight emotion

I suppose this is a place as any to start mentioning how I feel recently about my gender identity and how others are coping.

No, I’m not completely out yet, so I don’t suppose others would suddenly start referring me as Jordan and be fine with it, no questions asked. But I have been dropping enough hints for people — those who have a shred of respect left in the humanity tattered body of theirs — to start referring me as male.

Unfortunately, there aren’t actually that many people. And even within the people who are willing to, they don’t seem to actively do it.

Continue reading “it’s a wide ocean and a tight emotion”


one two three, one two three, drink

My grades aren’t really looking up as they should.

Surely, they are better than before? I don’t really know. I’m not doing terribly as I thought I’d be. My grades in English Literature aren’t bad but they aren’t as good as I wanted. Somehow I slipped up during the exams and ended up with the lowest grade in the class of six people.

That’s a real embarrassment. Continue reading “one two three, one two three, drink”

above the clouds, above the skies

Am I allergic to proper capitalization to certain words? Yes, yes, I am. I think lowercase is aesthetically pleasing, and I’m a whore for aesthetics.

I feel like this would be my introduction post, where I tell you about things that you’re not interested if you don’t want to stalk me. Or things that you already know if you stalk me. Continue reading “above the clouds, above the skies”