i’m sure there’s nothing pure here

It’s been a very, very long time since I last wrote a blog entry — there’s no excuse, I’ve just not been doing it for some reason.

There’s little reason for me to share my life here, public on the Internet like this, but here I am. Maybe I’d keep more personal things out of these posts and put them in my physical diary.

Yeah, I started a physical diary. That’s the weirdest thing I’ve ever done, and that’s saying something because I’ve done plenty of weird things in my life.

So school has started again, and writing becomes my stress reliever once again. I’m looking for a way to start a website where I can post my writings in an organized fashion, but I can’t seem to find any way to do it because I’m terrible at coding and I don’t have the skill or money to have my own domain.

I’ll just stick to posting on existing websites like Tumblr and try and organize them to the best of my ability with their tag system. I’ll keep my “imagine” requests as another blog, and maybe make a new blog to submit original short stories, perhaps. (Or should I also upload short stories here? That’s a good question.)

Does anyone actually know I want to be a writer when I grow up? I’m pretty sure there’s at least a handful at school that does, but I don’t think they really understand. I don’t personally think I have talent in writing, I just like the flow of putting words into sentences and sentences into paragraphs. I have so much freedom and control over writing and that’s a way out of such a restricted and complicated lifestyle.

There’s just a slight problem when it comes to writing and me. I think — yes, I think — that I have moderate ADHD and dyslexia. That kind of bums me out because it affects my writing ability. My dyslexia isn’t that bad, it’s probably just because I’m tired from school and I mess up my letters that look really similar. I usually catch myself before I type “bounce” as “pounce”.

But the “moderate ADHD” thing actually explains a lot about how I cannot, for the life of me, ever keep my ideas straight. I suffer from the terrible writing symptom, where I just introduce subplot after subplot and they won’t ever get resolved because I’m distracted with yet another subplot.

Anyway, I’ll stick to using this website to document things that happen in my life that is appropriate to share with the Internet, though I might rarely update here as nothing interesting happens in my life, ever.

Besides, it’s not like anyone reads my posts, right? I honestly don’t even really know why I’m writing this, keeping this blog updated. It’s not really in my style to write about myself.

So I’ll just cut it short here since I have nothing else to say.